Heyyy.


   Again , it's  been really really really lonngggggggg time since I last blogged PFFFFT. Well things weren't all great. But most of the things that happened were okay.


  SO !~ Yeappp. I've been feeling kinda depressed lately. So many things happened. I don't really wanna say it here cuz its kinda private.


  Oh and , today was my school's sports day! It was amazing. The seniors really put a lot of effort into this. And it all went pretty well. I would even say that today is the first time in my life that I actually enjoyed the sports day event LOLOL! I don't usually like to take part in these kind of events. But today was exceptionally different. Everything was great. There's only one thing that keeps me from totally enjoying the event : insecurity.

 But never mind that.

'' Next topic pleaseeee ''


I've moved into my new house. Its not that bad actually. In fact its actually better than what i was expecting, just a little though LULS. I love my new room. It's been quite sometimes since I last had my own room. So I went all out to decorate my own room HAHA And it turn out kinda messy so I took most of the things I put on down. Now I'm left with a dream catcher and some photos on my wall.

I wanted to write so much more. But I'm really too tired to do anything today so I'll just leave it to that. So yeap, it's definitely gonna be awhile before I blog again. Till next time ~


                                      - Sometimes you've got to forget what's gone, appreciate what still remains, and look forward to whats coming next -

Long Time No Blog !

          Hello ! 


   How have you guys been ? haha Its been ages since I last updated my blog. Well I was too lazy and there was nothing to write about LOL. But due to a request by an awesome someone , I am now , writing this blog post , at 1.30 am. my time hue hue hue hue. That person better be thankful LOL


        So ! Its already July. Time surely have wings and they just keep flying. But nothing much happen though. 


    Anyway , I am actually single now. Broke up with my girl for quite sometimes already. Simple reasons , we just quarrel too much. Like , almost everyday. And ever since I broke up with her , I feel so much more relieved LOLOLOL Im not as stress as I use to be. I have my own freedom. I don't have to keep worrying about stupid things.  And thats great. 

            Moving on , I got myself a 36" monitor, a new Dragon War keyboard , and Dragon War Dragunov mouse. And also a new gaming headphone. Pretty awesome isn't it ? Someone's gonna be jealous HAHHAH. Well I'm still not use to the new keyboard. Its really really soft. But I really love it a lot. 


          Life is as awesome as ever. Its my mid-term exams period now. Its kinda stupid how they can fit like, 6 papers into one day. And that's like killing all the students.It's really too much. Even the smartest guy on my grade say so. some of the teachers in my school are just really unreasonable. They use their emotions to teach, which makes all the students unhappy. Like hello , we are not the ones that make you pissed off , but why are you letting out you frustration on us ? I hate how teachers use their title as '' Teachers'' to take advantage of us. That's pure stupidity. 


          Alright! And now , I don't know what I should say. I ran out of things to blog. This is bad. Well I'll try to blog more. Since its the only thing i can do when my friends are all asleep and Im here blogging. 


      Good night people , sleep well , sweet dreams. 




                               -Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated.

H e l l o ~

NP - Weapon Live (M4SONIC) 

 Hey how you guys doing ? 

              Its such a good day today. I mean like , the weather is niceee heh. Most days in Thailand has hot weather pffft. I hate it.

               Anyway , so ! I've got to go to my school's celebration today pffft. Its like the seniors graduation nights. And i was the one who actually choreograph a dance sets for the performers. I know im awesome  LOLOL . Okay whatever. My days were great nowadays. Nothing bad really happen Pffft . Except for yesterday .__. Or the day before ? I forget pffft. I went to overnight at my girl house and my dad actually scolded me for it HAHAH Well , boys will be boys . My girl is cute yoh. She cuddle with me the whole night. It was so warm. We didnt sleep alone though . There was my another friend , and another girl-friend. Those two are wooing each other hahahah. They're so damn funny. 

             And , its my holiday now . I've got 2 month holidays. But , I HAVE SUMMER CLASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. AND IT FUCKING TAKES UP MY WHOLE HOLIDAY BEETCHHH WHATS HOLIDAY FOR U DUMB ASS ? 

           Im so pissed that there's summer class -_- I wan my holidays ya'know .__. Hmmm , but its good to go to summer class too. I get to see my girl every day this way. 

         Alright then ,  gotta go now !~ Blog next time ~ 

-Say whatever you wan. Good or bad , truth or false , you know it yourself . 

               But who would those words affect the most ? Yourself -

Nothing of me remains. But everything of u are.

            Whut Sup !

      Its kinda late now but yeah ,im just gonna block my shit down hahah ppffft.

 Its been awhile huhh. Its good to see that things changes somehow (: Its good to see that it ain't important anymore. Its good to see that its no longer needed. Its good to see that it does need to exist. They say it remains , but i guess it doesn't. But at the same time , it does. Paradox ? Or am i wrong ? Haha whatever. My english sucks.

    Im starting to get to the life here.Schooling and shit. Oh , and I already got into trouble with the Discipline Master for a few cases already AHAHHA! Idk why but i feel proud of myself HAHA okay dont take me as ur idol , im not a good example LOL But yeah. Im still that same asshole as i was when i was in sg. Messing around in school is like everyday basis for me pffft.

   I dont have much to say here. To be honest , i wrote a whole bunch of things actually , but i accidentally closed my internet window. LIKE FARKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK -___-

 Good night peeps !~ Gonna blog more often now i guess :3 Stay awesome.

    - Life Goes On -

New life ~

 Hey sup!~

          Its been soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long since i last blog omg. argghh don't really have good days pfft. But yeah , well im officially staying in thailand ~ And its like .. WHUT DA FARKKK . I wish i could continue my studies in Singapore argggh.

      So ,, alot of things had happened ~ Bad things , good things ~ I would say there's so much more bad things than good things. hahahahaha. Well , life. When nothing goes right... goes left. Oh well~

         Soooo yeappp.. i broke up wif my girlfriend that I loved so much.. because of my stupidity,, my god whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy arggggggggggggggghasdnlkgjqjwenfaewij . Fuck life. Really. Its like... why mannn ? what the fark was i thinking ? ... I feel like an asshole... Just because i have to come back to thailand to continue my studies , why did i choose to break up my god.. but yeahh,, to be honest... i was really stress about alot of things at that time. Family issue , money issue , school stuff, many many many many things.

     I really really really really really regretted... i bet she really hates me right now... how am i gonna face her when i go back to sg to get my stuff ? Andddddddd, some of my things are still at her houseeeeeee arrghhh damn it. I wish i wasn't so stupid pffft.

   I had the best time of my life when i was with her i swear. Although we actually had alot of fights and stuff , i really loved her alot. She's really an idiot so basically i had to teach her almost eveything about life haha joke. She';s cute okayyyy pffft.

      I dont know if she already move on hmmm.. And things im gonna say now , makes me even more of an asshole... I actually had a new girlfriend... argghhh.. But its like ,, a replacement for me ex... my god.. what the fuck is wrong with me... You guys might say , ' u miss ur girl then go back to her laa why find new one ?? stupidddd '' LOL haha well , i cant hold that stress of having a girlfriend overseas. I mean like , u cant see her , cant hug her , cant kiss herr, all you can do is , lying down on ur bed , hugging ur pillow , imagining that its her.. like seriously. Try it and u will know.
 
         I know its really a bad decision... But , what can i do ?... I dont wan her to waste the chance of getting a better guy for herself... I admit that i aint good enough.. Im selfish , im fierce , im not cute at all.. I dont really know how to take care of girlss... I dont really have anything that is good enough to be a boyfriend... But i did try my best to be the best for her... I dont know how to say sorry to her... Saying sorry is pointless too... All i can do is just hope that she would actually move on.. I think she already moved on though.. She had her ELF ( close friends ) with her (: Its good that she actually had those realy friend with her , to help her , confort her all the time. Im here in thailand , alone. NO ONE . Not even a close friend. Friendship takes time to build you seeeeee. Its not just a one day thing.

         In conclusion , i wish i can rewine time , and spend more time with her if i knew this would happen. Sighhh , what can i do ? Its all my fault. If only i was smarter..


        Its bed time ~ Good night peeps. Gonna blog again tmr maybe ? Hahah let's see how it goes ~

 

Late post~ for 25th.

Hey,
   
   Its an awesome day today. Sorry for the late post , my internet went down at night after i got home. Well , not a lot of things happens today actually.I was ask to look after dad's shop , from early in the morning , 8 to all the way in the evening , 6. Guess what ? i rot there. I didnt do anything. No customers at all. Well , simply because most of the customers only go to the main shop. Who would go to a side shop when obviouly the boss wont be thr ? But pfft , im a small boss yoh. heh ~

   I went to play basketball after that , at my sis's uni. I was surprise to know that most of the ppl there actually rmb me after not seeing me for like , a year. And we only knew each other for a few months last year. I didnt get to play wif them though , they were alr done playing when i reach there . So i played wif some new ppl i just met. They were friendly. But everyone though that im about their age. They were shocked to find out my real age. Is it so surprising ? They say , im way too good at bball for a 15 yeah old thai kid. Well , the only reason that makes them think that way is because thai peeps dun really play baskerball. But i play in singapore yo. So , after i told them about it , they keep saying singapore basketballers must be pro heh. Well , i guess i would say , everyplace , have different style. Singapore is more of one man show ( this is my opinion ) , while in thailand , they really work together to creat the open space foe drive in. And its really cool how they pass the ball around , like they know each other's mind.

    I finish playing basketball at around 8. So i waited for my sis's lesson to end , at around 8:30 . We went for dinner with her friends at KFC . argggh. fats. Her friends know me. As i alr meet them before. But as usual , they cant really rmb me. Did i change that much ? Or is it just time ? lol. After finish eating , all of us decided to play batminton. lol . So late alr. We reach the court at around 9:30 . It was alr called and booked by us so we dun have to worry about the space. It was fun playing with them. They are so funny. Sadly , i only played for awhile , as i injured my right wrist. Dayum. Old wounds , sucks. So i sit there and watch them have fun . It was fun watching them though. We were dead tired by the time we finish playing , 11 pm. We went home shortly after .

    Reached home , bathe , rest. Standard. My sis and dad are alr sleep by the time i bath finish. So i on my comp and realize the internet's not working. I was like ' fuck ' . I was bored and didnt wanna sleep , so i look through all the files in my comp. Its kinda like , looking at memory box somehow. So many things. I have habbit keeping photos in my comp files , so i saw many things. I kinda happy , yet a little sad , to look at those photos. It really brings back a lot of memories. So ,  cant stop it. It flows out. I miss those days somehow. Regret.

    But , i have to move on. Those are just memories. They are long gone. All that is left is just beautiful memories , that would stays forever in my head. I have my baby with me . She the girl i love the most now. She annoying at times , but i know she cares for me a lot. She complain , but thats simply because she doesn't like it. She is selfish , but what can i do ? Im her boyfriend after all. She is like my princess . I adore her , love her , care for her . And i never wanna let her go. I wanna marry her. I know its stupid. Im only 15 now. what nonsence is this. But who cares ? Im stupid anyway. Call me whatever you wants. I am an idiot. Try me. I'll fuck you up .

    Well , nth more im gonna say. Good day.

                                - You come to love , not by finding a perfection person. But by seeing an imperfect person perfectly -

Relieved

      Finally , peace. no more thinking so much. Not gonna have much trouble now. Its the holidays. Well , although im gonna miss my friends , again , what are friends ? Do i even have them ? haha. I always tot i have alot of friends . But , it seems that they all have their own friends now. So , im just gonna stay away. Its good to see other ppl being happy with the ppl they wanna be with though. I guess im just gonna be like this , hang around wif my bros , doing stuffs i like.

   Talking about that , its been soooo long since i last dance. Hmmm. Im gonna go back to my country , i dont know if there's anyone there thats gonna dance wif me LOL. I lost all contacts wif my old friends in my country . I miss them so much. Those times are unforgettable. If i could choose , i would rather stay friends wif them then to make new friends in sg. Its so different. No offence , but the kids here , likes to back stab ppl. Well , not all but a few . Its so easy to tell lol.  They talk so nice to you , treat you so well , but you never know , what have they been doing behind your back. And , obviously , its kinda hurting when you find out about it . Hmm.

  I guess , i only a few close friends who i really trust . And they know who they are. They are awesome . They always help me , or cheer me up . Although some do not know how to , they tried their best , and its was funny how they try to cheer me up haha.

  Well i should say , in my opinion , in life there are gonna be many ppl that would walks in to your life. Some are nice towards you , some aren't . But , you have to choose who you wanna get close to properly. It might not end up well if you choose the wrong ones. They might even ended up making your life worst ever . While the good ones , might stay close with you , all the way to future. And if u wanna talk in adult way , they might be ur working client haha.


   I dont have mush to say now . Good night peeps~

                           
                             - A good friend knows all your stories. A best friend lived them with you -