Its been soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long since i last blog omg. argghh don't really have good days pfft. But yeah , well im officially staying in thailand ~ And its like .. WHUT DA FARKKK . I wish i could continue my studies in Singapore argggh.
So ,, alot of things had happened ~ Bad things , good things ~ I would say there's so much more bad things than good things. hahahahaha. Well , life. When nothing goes right... goes left. Oh well~
Soooo yeappp.. i broke up wif my girlfriend that I loved so much.. because of my stupidity,, my god whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy arggggggggggggggghasdnlkgjqjwenfaewij . Fuck life. Really. Its like... why mannn ? what the fark was i thinking ? ... I feel like an asshole... Just because i have to come back to thailand to continue my studies , why did i choose to break up my god.. but yeahh,, to be honest... i was really stress about alot of things at that time. Family issue , money issue , school stuff, many many many many things.
I really really really really really regretted... i bet she really hates me right now... how am i gonna face her when i go back to sg to get my stuff ? Andddddddd, some of my things are still at her houseeeeeee arrghhh damn it. I wish i wasn't so stupid pffft.
I had the best time of my life when i was with her i swear. Although we actually had alot of fights and stuff , i really loved her alot. She's really an idiot so basically i had to teach her almost eveything about life haha joke. She';s cute okayyyy pffft.
I dont know if she already move on hmmm.. And things im gonna say now , makes me even more of an asshole... I actually had a new girlfriend... argghhh.. But its like ,, a replacement for me ex... my god.. what the fuck is wrong with me... You guys might say , ' u miss ur girl then go back to her laa why find new one ?? stupidddd '' LOL haha well , i cant hold that stress of having a girlfriend overseas. I mean like , u cant see her , cant hug her , cant kiss herr, all you can do is , lying down on ur bed , hugging ur pillow , imagining that its her.. like seriously. Try it and u will know.
I know its really a bad decision... But , what can i do ?... I dont wan her to waste the chance of getting a better guy for herself... I admit that i aint good enough.. Im selfish , im fierce , im not cute at all.. I dont really know how to take care of girlss... I dont really have anything that is good enough to be a boyfriend... But i did try my best to be the best for her... I dont know how to say sorry to her... Saying sorry is pointless too... All i can do is just hope that she would actually move on.. I think she already moved on though.. She had her ELF ( close friends ) with her (: Its good that she actually had those realy friend with her , to help her , confort her all the time. Im here in thailand , alone. NO ONE . Not even a close friend. Friendship takes time to build you seeeeee. Its not just a one day thing.
In conclusion , i wish i can rewine time , and spend more time with her if i knew this would happen. Sighhh , what can i do ? Its all my fault. If only i was smarter..
Its bed time ~ Good night peeps. Gonna blog again tmr maybe ? Hahah let's see how it goes ~
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